To be honest with you, my memory is really, really, really bad. But from what I can remember, this year has been quite a roller coaster.

I quit the pharmacy assistant job I had at the end of the previous year and it was really though for me. There have been weeks where I only lived on cornflakes and sometimes days when I didn’t eat at all and just lived on water. I’ve never felt so poor and lost. I have never felt so emotionally unstable before. I’ve had second thoughts about the course I am currently doing, and even was on the verge of changing it.

The first half of the year was very stressful. I even went to get myself checked out, because I really wasn’t myself. Lots of sleepless nights, days that I pretty much just wasted by not doing anything and most of the time just spent within four walls.

The stress did have an advantage…For a bit anyway. I went to the gym, in the hope of a distraction, but even that didn’t work out along the line. I came across people that weren’t supportive, and instead decided to make me feel worse about myself, stating the obvious and making me feel like I have no hope.

During the summer holidays, I had to find myself a job so I could pay my rent for my student house in third year. My job was at a customer service centre, taking calls from customers who were mostly expecting a parcel. As you could imagine, the job was horrible. Most of the customers on the line were just complaining and even verbally abusing me through the phone. Most of the time it wasn’t anything personal and I knew that. But it really does get to you eventually. Constantly listening to people yell at you from 8 in the morning till 8 in the afternoon is not really ideal. I’ve had moments when I just went on a break, went to the toilets just to cry my eyes out. Eventually I ended up quitting the job. I didn’t earn enough and was unable to pay the first rent payment.

A lot more went on this year. But there were some amazing memories I will cherish, too. For example, my week in London. The London trip was amazing. To think I have lived in England for about ten years and I only really got to see London properly this year is kind of bad. I have been to London before, but my week there has really made me wonder why I haven’t explored it like this before. London truly is an amazing city. The one week I spent there was not enough! But that’s good, because now I have a reason to go to London more often!

While I was in London, I had the pleasure of meeting four amazing people Kavino (MYA Photography), Vithya (Hair and Make up Artist), Koby (founder of Tamil Hindu Weddings) and a member of the Vivaha Magazine, whose name  I unfortunately can’t remember (I’m sorry if you ever read this!). I won a competition around that time for a photo shoot run by Tamil Hindu Weddings. The photo shoot didn’t carry on as planned, because I ended up backing out due to personal reasons. Nevertheless, meeting them was an absolute pleasure. A special shout out to Kavino who I’ve talked to more than the others. She truly is an amazing and kind person. Beautiful inside and out!

There were other special moments, like actually somehow passing my second year (thank god), my 21st birthday, my dad’s 50th birthday, the Christmas Eve Party recently and of course starting this blog!!!

This year has taught me a lot of lessons, given me a lot of good memories and made me meet a lot of new kind souls who I’m looking forward to sharing more memories with in the coming years.

I’m not going to lie and say that I have already corrected the mistakes I have made in 2014. I still don’t have a proper job and I’m still struggling a bit financially, but I’m not going to let that ruin me. Instead, I’m just going to make sure I make good use of every second of the coming years.

Hopefully 2015 will be much better than 2014. Make every second of the coming years count!

I wish you all an amazing New Year!!!

Aja x

P.S. Sorry about the really long post!!!